I have to admit, it seems as though God has been awakening new desires in me as of late.
The Willow Leadership Summit is being hosted here this week and I had the opportunity to hear Bill Hybels speak this morning. And though I’ve heard Hybels many times in the past, this time was a bit different than most. Sometimes he hits a home run and other times he hits it out of the ballpark. Today was an out-of-the-ballpark kinda day.
Hybels touched on several different aspects of leadership, but the one that resonated the most within my soul was when he talked about fearless following of Christ… following through on vision no matter the cost.
I’ve been thinking a lot in recent days about such things.
Frankly, I have no idea what God is doing in my soul. But there is a restlessness… one of those restlessnesses that come when something is going on so deep within you that words cannot express what it is. People ask about it, and you simply respond with a shrug and a blank stare. One of THOSE restlessnesses.
I don’t think He’s telling me that it’s time for a season of ministry elsewhere, but I do feel that it means a new focus on differing ministries here. Possibly some new direction, or maybe not. I really just don’t know. I just know the future is going to be different than I might have imagined it.
Interesting huh.
Kev, hey its Greg Sanderson. I knew that you were going to write about this. I still read your site quite often and for some reason you popped into my head when Bill was speaking this morning. I sense a common thread in your passions and Bill’s when I read this site. When I came home after working the summit today, coming to your site was one of the first things I did because I had to see if you wrote. For what its worth, I was right. Hope this finds you encouraged because I was when reading your posting just now.
Kevin – I too was struck hard by the "holy discontent" message for many reasons. God has been stirring that discontent up in me for a while now and I have responded… but that message today is taking me on a new path as well… one that further extends that angst to heed the call, no matter what the cost. Thanks for sharing brother. Greg and all others at Willowcreek…. thanks for the vision to put this summit on for 10 years. AWESOME!
Kevin, can I just say that I expect nothing less ambiguous from you?
Keep being restless. It’s what makes you great!
Oh, and ditto on all the thoughts on my life being constantly shaped and refined as well…that is all.
I can’t wait to see what God has in store for you Kev.
Hopefully, I can see what is about to happen for me also 
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I really missed out on the summit, but hopefully next year I can attend (aka – no more public school!), but man, if you feel a restlessness, you have to get out there and fight, and get in the mud, because God expects nothing less. If you feel like you should be doing more, you NEED to be doing more.
Kevin,
I just came across your blog via Darrell Jordan’s, so I have looked back through some of your recent posts. What you are saying about a restlessness so deep that words cannot express is about where I feel that I am right now. God is working deep in my soul right now and pushing me to a new place in serving Him.
Good job expressing this and I pray that God will lead you to where He wants you to go. For me, I am hanging on, praying, learning to surrender all that I have and all that I am and trust God as He takes me well beyond where I could go on my own.
Great post! I look forward to reading more from you.
My next task: reading all your posts on your thoughts on community!